Loved reading this, and often feel the same way. Usually when I get into spirals like the one you describe above it helps to remove myself (mentally) as master puppeteer from the equation. You know, the whole... "universe has your back" story. Keep writing, you're excellent at it.
Probably my favorite to date. Reminds me of the acting mantra “moment to moment “. So hard to do but when you do it, you realize how wonderful it is. Never ahead or behind. Just here. Thanks Jack for the reminder.
Jack -- this is awesome. Thank you for sharing your vulnerable ickiness. It's funny how shared our ickiness is. I find that I have to surrender something specific...like, surrender what I think I'm going to receive as a result of me doing ______ . I lived for too long with this kind of transactional behavior and was only pissed that I wasn't getting what I wanted for all my amazingness. Letting go of expectations from life, other people, God, myself...and then being present to my tasks, and finding the joy in the right now, helps me tremendously. Thanks again!
Loved reading this, and often feel the same way. Usually when I get into spirals like the one you describe above it helps to remove myself (mentally) as master puppeteer from the equation. You know, the whole... "universe has your back" story. Keep writing, you're excellent at it.
I love it
This was a really good one
Probably my favorite to date. Reminds me of the acting mantra “moment to moment “. So hard to do but when you do it, you realize how wonderful it is. Never ahead or behind. Just here. Thanks Jack for the reminder.
Jack -- this is awesome. Thank you for sharing your vulnerable ickiness. It's funny how shared our ickiness is. I find that I have to surrender something specific...like, surrender what I think I'm going to receive as a result of me doing ______ . I lived for too long with this kind of transactional behavior and was only pissed that I wasn't getting what I wanted for all my amazingness. Letting go of expectations from life, other people, God, myself...and then being present to my tasks, and finding the joy in the right now, helps me tremendously. Thanks again!
Surrender, too.